Hopeful

We had our Dr.'s appointment on Monday. I haven't actually seen him or even told him that we did IVF and what happened with it, so a lot of time was spent telling him what happened during that process. I explained that we did IVF, they grabbed 4 eggs (3 healthy), and they implanted 2 healthy embryos and 1 so-so one. I had to explain that I did get pregnant, but once my body started reacting to the Progesterone Shot (I broke out in a rash) that they changed me to Prometrium, and that is when I really started having problems. I really dont like Prometrium because it hasnt helped me hold on to one pregnancy yet. I also explained that I was upset with my IVF Dr. because he refused to put me on Heparin even though I have a family history of auto-immune disease. After I told him about all of that, I told him that T and I gave up on trying, we gave up for a long time. But when there is something in your heart, and you know it is meant to be, that you can't give up on it. My sister came with me to the Dr. appointment, and I started crying when I told my Dr. that my sister was willing to carry a baby for us. My Dr. was very supportive of what we are trying to do, so he is willing to do IUI, but the cost is more than I thought it would be; it is $500.00 each try! Last I heard, it was only $75.00 each try. So T and I arent sure if we will be able to afford that. I also told my Dr. that I want to try going on Clomid again, and I would like to go on the Progesterone shot AND Heparin this time. He said that he would be willing to prescibe those to me, so that is what we are going to try. I wont start taking Heparin until I am pregnant, so I dont need to worry about that, but the one thing he wanted to change, is instead of the Progesterone shot, he wants me to go on Prometrium again... that stuff just doesnt work, so I dont know what to do in that case. I just really hope that I can get pregnant and hold on to our baby this time.

I actually got up the courage to talk to T about a sperm donor. He looked a little shocked at first, but then he realized why I was asking. He sounds fine with it. So, if it doesnt work this time around with my egg and his sperm, then we may go ahead and try a sperm donor. I guess that way, in the long run, we would find out where the problem really is.... if it's me, if it's him, if it's the combination of the two of us, if its not time yet, or if we will never have our baby.