It's been a while since I've written. In October, we had a little girl come over to our house for over a week. Her normal Foster Parents went on a trip and the state wouldn't allow them to take her. She clicked with us instantly, and we had a great time during that week. The following weekend, a little boy came over who is up for adoption. As much as T and I wanted it to work, it just wasnt a good fit. I really thought we would be happy doing this Foster stuff, but so far, it hasnt been quite what we thought.
We have decided to try again. I am extremely excited about this, because T and I both have this need in our life. My sister said that she would carry our baby, but we cant afford to do IVF again, and its even more expensive when it comes to surrogate. I have an appointment with my Dr. next week to see what he can do for us. I really dont know if it's me, or if it's T, or a combination of the two. I've thought about asking T if we should try a sperm donor to see if I could carry a baby for us that way, but I'm not really sure what he would think about that. I mean, in a sense, where my sister would be using her egg and his sperm, the baby wouldn't be mine (yes, it would be conceived because of our love); so wouldnt it be the same if we used a donor?
There is a lot going on in our life right now. T is going in a whole new direction in his career, the economy sucks, so its hard to pay bills right now; but if we could make our dream come true, we would sell our house if we needed to and get into something smaller. I really hope our new path will help lead us to our goal, our baby.
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