Last few days of the 2ww

Well, I'm on my 3rd (and final) cycle of Clomid. I've been having some pain on my right side, which feels an awful lot like when I had my tubal pregnancy. These pains are ranging from sharp,quick-stabbing pains that disappear quickly to pain that lasts for hours where I can't even stand up straight. I really hope I am pregnant, but I fear that if I am, it is a tubal. I don't know what I would do if I lost another baby. I guess I'll find out within a few days if I really am pregnant or not. Part of me feels like I am because of these odd pains I have been feeling (which have happened daily since I woke up on Friday the 13th). The other part of me feels like maybe there is something wrong with me that is causing these horrible pains.

We have had our Foster kids back since the beginning of January. They have really settled down here and I can tell they are comfortable with T and I. They say "I Love You" to us everyday, and one of them even tells us not to "let the bed bugs bite" when we tuck them in every night. Although it is hard going from no kids to 3 instantly, the rewards are well worth it! However, it is strange that T and I can't wait for the moments we can just be together by ourselves. Kind-of ironic actually; we have been trying to build our family for over 8 years now, and now that we have one (yes, its a Foster Family, but its still Family), we are acting like all the other parents we know who cant wait for a moment alone with their spouse.

Hopefully I'll find out in a few days if T and I will have a new beginning on the way. It would be a miracle if there was a mini "us" in the world.